Last night, I had one of those life changing painful realization. My life is not going to be the same ever again. I'm in love with my best friend.
It sounds simple and I know it happened to a lot of people, I even know it sometimes turns out alright, they like them back and a lovely romance evolves. This will never be my case.
We met over 6 years ago, when we were 14 yyears old and we thought we knew everything about life and being cool. We had just started secondary school and he had a lot of friends, I barely knew anyone. So we stuck together. We love the same music and he even dated a model, years older than him, because I helped him (a life time high for him). The relationship we had was fun, brother sisterly, and built on trust.
I stayed the same throughout the years. I had a crush on one of his best friends, confessed, got rejected and he chased the same girl for over 3 years just to have a shitty relationship when she finally said yes. We stayed best friends even when she hated me because was jealous, and I hated her because she hurt my friend. We stayed best friends when we couldn't go out in the same group because his friend that rejected me was there and it felt horrible.
We had a brief fallout in our freshman year in college, we went to the same school. And we changed, he had new friends and so had I. We both became pretentious douche bags and we fought over and over about stupid things. He called me a bitch and I called him an asshole, but we knew deep that that's exactly what we were. So we let it go and started hanging out again.
He isn't the needy type, and i'm not either. We could spend a month without seeing each other and with one unanswered "hello" text and no one would be mad. Because when we finally saw each other it would be like a crappy chick flick's pajama party. I'd like to tell him my secrets and he'd tell me his, we'd laugh and eat junk food and be happy. I can honestly say that it felt a lot like home.
Until last week I started to get pissy when my girlfriend told me they thought he was hot. And I got extra pissed when he told me he had a new fling. It made angry and jealous in a way I had never felt, not even my boyfriends.
It sounds simple and I know it happened to a lot of people, I even know it sometimes turns out alright, they like them back and a lovely romance evolves. This will never be my case.
We met over 6 years ago, when we were 14 yyears old and we thought we knew everything about life and being cool. We had just started secondary school and he had a lot of friends, I barely knew anyone. So we stuck together. We love the same music and he even dated a model, years older than him, because I helped him (a life time high for him). The relationship we had was fun, brother sisterly, and built on trust.
I stayed the same throughout the years. I had a crush on one of his best friends, confessed, got rejected and he chased the same girl for over 3 years just to have a shitty relationship when she finally said yes. We stayed best friends even when she hated me because was jealous, and I hated her because she hurt my friend. We stayed best friends when we couldn't go out in the same group because his friend that rejected me was there and it felt horrible.
We had a brief fallout in our freshman year in college, we went to the same school. And we changed, he had new friends and so had I. We both became pretentious douche bags and we fought over and over about stupid things. He called me a bitch and I called him an asshole, but we knew deep that that's exactly what we were. So we let it go and started hanging out again.
He isn't the needy type, and i'm not either. We could spend a month without seeing each other and with one unanswered "hello" text and no one would be mad. Because when we finally saw each other it would be like a crappy chick flick's pajama party. I'd like to tell him my secrets and he'd tell me his, we'd laugh and eat junk food and be happy. I can honestly say that it felt a lot like home.
Until last week I started to get pissy when my girlfriend told me they thought he was hot. And I got extra pissed when he told me he had a new fling. It made angry and jealous in a way I had never felt, not even my boyfriends.
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